Tuesday, February 7, 2012

My New Lifestyle

What is a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy you ask? Well, it is going to be the tool that helps save my life! It is a weight loss surgery procedure that works by restricting the amount of food you can consume in a sitting as opposed to a Gastric Bypass where the stomach is reduced to a pouch and the intestines are re-routed.

Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy information here.

After years of research and my insurance finally paying for the procedure, I found a local surgeon and scheduled an appointment. I am so glad I found Dr Ahuja at New Life Weight Loss Center. I have heard nothing but rave reviews for him and his staff.

I have battled my weight for the past 15 years or so and after yet another failed diet attempt, I have decided to go with weight loss surgery. While not the magic bullet or cure-all, this procedure will finally give me a permanent tool to use in order to get the weight off and keep it off.

This is definitely not the easy way out, I will still have to watch what I eat and exercise and my 'tool' will have to be maintained by limiting my portions. I will always have to take vitamins and always deal with the emotions connected to my weight.

Being overweight, for me, has been like a growing onion. Now that I've matured I have a protective outer layer that can keep out a lot (not all) of external contaminates. I am able to use it like a shield to hide behind. Each pound I take off exposes yet another layer and with each layer comes more emotions. Most people aren't fat by coincidence. I have used mine as a way to keep people out, as a buffer between me and society. As I get to a new weight, I start thinking about the last time I was at that weight and of course it brings a flood of emotions with it. The trick is learning to deal with the emotional aspects, learning from them and moving on. Where I have always failed before was the fear of removing my armor. NEVER AGAIN! I will never have to experience those things that got me where I am now, so I have nothing to fear.

I've decided to live my life and love every moment of it. I want to teach my children that emotions don't have to control every aspect of life. It's possible to deal with emotions with things other than food.

Oh Temptation....

This article was brought to my attention at the best possible point of my life. Yes you can Resist!
I will be having Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy surgery in 2 weeks and have been battling the 'Last Supper' mentality. I just can't let myself say no because it will be the 'last time' I will have 'insert food here' ever, or for a while. After putting away 3 or 4 chocolate chip cookies and feeling immense guilt and pain(real pain, junk food hurts!) I started beating myself up.

Knowing that there is an actual study behind putting off a craving, I might actually let myself believe it will work. I'm sure I have been able to do this before subconsciously, just never put two and two together. I'm fairly certain this will be my mantra from now on. Sure I can have that, I'll just wait until later to do it!